Oy Vey A Guru!|
by Karuna Lynne
I still have a hard time saying it without a little giggle. "I have a Guru." The word is so foreign on my Jewish-Jersey tongue. How awkward I feel saying "Guru" to my friends, Yoga students and family. Why is it so hard for me to say? When using the word Guru, I am trying to convey that he is my teacher, my close friend, my spiritual advisor, and that there's something indescribably powerful when I hear him speak. It is different than a parent/child relationship, more than a therapist or a life coach. I feel fully present around him. Like a hummingbird with nectar, I drink in his words.
I knew that some people might wonder why I needed a Guru. Honestly I hadn't known I needed one until I found myself with one. Almost immediately a shift began to happen within me. Most of my life I used food to fill an emptiness in my heart. Whenever I lost a love, I felt great sadness and wondered what was wrong with me. I then turned to eating. Having a Guru helped me see that I was doing fine all by myself and I lacked for nothing. I began to feel a closer relationship to all humankind and I wasn't lonely anymore. I therefore didn't need to fill any emptiness. Gradually, I began to see the graceful peace that drew me to my beloved Guru, was inside me as well.
I have given up drinking alcohol at parties because I don't need that kind of high anymore. I've given up late nights for early morning meditation practice. Also I gave up thinking of sweets as a way to fill my empty heart. On the other hand, I have not given up my grandmother's delicious matzo ball recipe, Jewish holiday celebrations, or my love of Bruce Springsteen. I am still a Jewish woman who has next to her Garden State license plate a reminder for everyone and myself that what the world needs now is "Om Sweet Om."
"Only a lit candle can light an unlit one."This is an excerpt from Karuna's essay. Click here to read the complete text of Oy Vey A Guru!
Rev. Jaganath Carrera